My sister had her baby a couple of weeks ago. I'm doing about 90% o.k. with it. Her baby is beautiful, and it truly is a miracle that she conceived and carried to term, and I'm SO happy for her. But it is still SOOOOOO unfair that I didn't get to have my miracle too.
I had a rough time at a recent good-bye party of a really good friend. At the party, the only people who were there who didn't have a baby that was under 6 months was me, the girl who was going away, and one of my other good friends. All but one of the babies are boys too. I just kept thinking, I should be huge and pregnant right now, and talking about how hard it is going to be to go back to those late night feedings, and complaining about my swollen ankles, or having to go through ANOTHER pregnancy through the summer. I would do ANYTHING to be able to complain like that.
-Andie
